Not going

I have decided that so long as my aunt is alive. I will not leave her side.
Despite whether or not she thinks she deserves more.... I do.
And she wont let me help her.
And she is all I have left.
Sometimes courage is tackling the devil you know, rather than the unknown.

I'm not really interested in anything that is offered locally, So I will look for something online, in the field I have chosen.

We make life choices, depending on the circumstances which apply at the time of the decision.
That's life.