I'm scared

First test in eight years. Multiple choice, 1 minute per question.

The last test I took in 2006, I failed.

I was working a four day work week and had lost interest in the subject.

Had decided if I was going to do my masters it had to be done full time.

Focus get it over with.

Managed to land another job.

Until ... global meltdown.

I'm anxious. Making little cuts. My mouths. Red lips.

And I am very aware that even if I am successful.

There is still a huge boulder.

My aunt.

Stood up to arranged marriage at age 14.

She .... will not let me help her.

I can't leave this country.

The discipline I wish to pursue is not offered in this country.

.... Are there any other options?

One step at a time.