A blue rose represents the unattainable.
It will be placed over my left breast.
What I wanted most for this year was ....
One last conversation with my dead mother
to say...
a thousand things....
How hurt I was that she withheld the extent of her diagnosis when I was fourteen.
Five years to live... stage 3 breast cancer that had metastasised.
There was never any getting better.
But not wanting to jeapordise my chances,... my academics...
she withheld the diagnosis from me.
Denying me the opportunity to learn to embrace sickness and death for what it is...
A part of life.
As I watch the therapist I volunteer with now. I wish she was part of the treatment team all those years ago.
Even now, there are only nine in the entire country.
And surgeons don't take the time for after surgery care.
We don't have the interdisciplinary teams
Dietmyian
Physiotherapist
General practicioner
Onocologist
Therapeutic radiologist
Occupational therapist
Nurse
The health care system is a mess.
But ... my mother had a daughter...
and she is very bright, won a national scholarship for science subjects.
There is a long hard road ahead.
But it looks promising... because...it's time... I stepped up
