Becoming Real

Monday, May 3, 2010

Last post

In half an hour I leave to go write ... an exam in ...

of all things psychology....

how the mind works and what are the processes...

I ... time to clean up my room and clean out the junk.

The reality is... it's just me now... alone.

I burnt all the bridges that lead to this a while back.

I'm just another member of the walking dead.

Waiting for death.

Not going, not learning, not saving.

And I am going to give up the blogging as well.

Just quite now... my memories to myself.

Clive Wearing is blessed.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

You can't

There is no going back.

This hasn't been a complete loss. The question is... do I try to go back if the government changes and the property tax gets squashed.

This ... career... was not of my own choosing.

I probably... would have liked something.... more mom.

But the reality is.... I am what I am...

I can't change that...

What do I take away from this last year...

Last night I dreamed that I was a child
Out where the pines grow wild and tall
I was trying to make it home through the forest
Before the darkness falls
I heard the wind rustling through the trees
And ghostly voices rose from the fields
I ran with my heart pounding down that broken path
With the devil snappin' at my heels

I broke through the trees, and there in the night
My father's house stood shining hard and bright
The branches and brambles tore my clothes and scratched my arms
But I ran till I fell, shaking in his arms

I awoke and I imagined the hard things that pulled us apart
Will never again, sir, tear us from each other's hearts
I got dressed, and to that house I did ride
From out on the road, I could see its windows shining in light

I walked up the steps and stood on the porch
A woman I didn't recognize came and spoke to me through a chained door
I told her my story, and who I'd come for
She said "I'm sorry, son, but no one by that name lives here anymore"

My father's house shines hard and bright
It stands like a beacon calling me in the night
Calling and calling, so cold and alone
Shining `cross this dark highway where our sins lie unatoned

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Finding Nemo

Dory -- Cognitive Neuropsychology in action.

I am so sad.

But so is this country.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Tired

And .... distracted.

Must learn to focus.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Reading

http://lordstrangeoftt.blogspot.com

http://nastylittletruths.wordpress.com/

Paiget's Formal Operation

The problem with this country is the inability to apply general principles across disciplines.

With so many not reaching past primary school.... they are stuck at concrete operations.

And so are unable to develop true heuristics.